June 2012
2 posts
“I’m sorry for the person I became....
Well...
I deactivated my Facebook and Twitter account. This is the last thing to go. I’ll be back, but right now I need to do some soul searching and figure out who I was before I changed into this person I hate. I hate reading things on Facebook and Twitter that make my heart sink to my butt. I don’t want the discouragement or negative thoughts while I’m trying to change for the better....
May 2012
347 posts
This time I broke both of our hearts. I feel absolutely disgusted with myself. Hurting someone so amazing can really make you hate yourself. All I can do now is wait for him to forgive me and then maybe we can work things out then. Right now the tensions and stress levels are too high between us. Time heals everything so I need to give us time. Him and I truly have something special and I think if...
I really do hate myself right now
I deserve everything that’s getting handed to me. I fucked up the best thing I’ve ever had and it’s entirely my fault. I’m so stupid and I don’t deserve to be with someone as amazing as him. It kills me to know I hurt the one I love. It fucking kills to know I made him so unhappy. I deserve to be miserable now. He deserves to be happy and if that’s without me,...
Best way to not get your heart broken, pretend you...
diaryforeyestosee: Seeing you hurt →
thediaryforeyestosee:
is fucking killing me. You can try and hide it with your smile, but I can hear it in your voice. I see it in your face. I see it on your blog. i can hear it in the words you say. You ask me what’s wrong, yet it’s right there with you. i can’t stand having you hurt and it’s literally killing me. i…
25 Difficult Questions
1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel?When they’re telling me how they feel. Especially right now.
2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way? I was really angry Sunday night and I posted something...
Me in class.
Me: okay, gotta focus. Big test coming up.
Me: ooooh, when did that poster get there?
Me: ugh, split ends.
Me: why is the back of your head so attractive?!
Me: HOW DID YOU GET THAT ANSWER?
Me: just act like you understand.
Me: don't pick me, don't pick me...
Me: so here's my number, so call me maybe.
Me: THAT SONG IT'S SO CATCHY.
Me: it's only been fifteen minutes?
Me: I hate you all.
Me: someone shoot me.
All I can do now is apologize and hope for the best. I can’t believe how terrible I am… How could I say those things? I hate myself for this and I’m so mad for letting my anger get the best of me. I hurt him with my words that he was never supposed to see and I wish I could take everything I said back. He means the world to me and I’m ruining this. I’m ruining one of...
If I could say sorry a million times, I would.
That post about my boyfriend was beyond stupid and exaggerated. He saw it. He’s so pissed at me and I don’t blame him because I’m pissed at myself too. I really didn’t mean anything in that post. I was really upset and I thought taking my anger out on a post that I thought he’d never see would make me feel better. It didn’t and it came back and bit me in the...
